Whenever you feel stressed out or overwhelmed by what lies ahead, always remember that you didn’t choose this. God chose you. Remember the words of Christ, “You did not choose me, but I chose you and appointed you that you should go and bear fruit and that your fruit should abide, so that whatever you ask the Father in my name, he may give it to you” (John 15:16 ESV). Something greater than yourself is calling you to rise above average. You are called upon to rise above mediocrity, and to grow into the most productive version of yourself.
God knows you are not smart enough, rich enough or powerful enough to get the job done. However, he chose you, and you can be sure that he knows what he is doing. When you consider how imperfect and poor the heroes of faith were in the bible, you will realize that you are in a better place than most of them. David, the little shepherd boy, was called to raise an army, train them and overthrow the government of the day without risking the breakout of a civil war. It took him decades to grow into his new role as king over the entire kingdom. God chose him, and confirmed the calling over time.
You are not better off without a sense of calling or election. You will not find any sense of fulfillment or wholeness outside your life’s task. Stop feeding the idea that you can quit this and return to the life you used to have. You can’t. The day you face your new reality, and embrace it, you will begin to make better progress. When you abandon your thoughts of quitting, you will begin to do the needful, which is to pray. Make a habit of praying about the things that trouble you. And concentrate on the divine over the physical. You might not have a complete picture in your mind. However, you can trust that as you pray and act on the intelligence you receive in your heart, you will get everything done right.